Second chance

 

Super excitement of the day had made Kim’s brain overcharged. She could not sleep. This was recipe for disaster the next day as she knew well. Just when – it must have been 2 a.m. at least– she was dozing off, the phone rang.

“Hi baby! I will be passing through your town tomorrow. Can we meet for lunch?”

Stephen was on the line. Wow! Lunch! Barely three months ago, he had disappeared into thin air and did not have time to return her calls. Kim wanted to berate him but did not know where to begin. She just switched off.

Now her chances of sleep were gone. She had trusted Stephen and had assumed that he would have the courage to tell her straight that things were not working out. Why did she trust him? Because of his polished talk and professorial appearance? Or because she badly needed to trust someone? She thought it was the latter. He turned out to be a two-timing sod like the rest. Still they had some great time together in the beginning.

“Don’t think of the past. It is over. Don’t think of unpleasant things that have happened. Think of the future.” Kim chided herself and took a deep breath.

“Think of the fresh air entering your body. The nostril, throat, lungs and heart. Loosen your body and don’t think of anything else.” The newspaper spiritual column had advised. She tried to follow it.

Another ring! Kim was about to ask Stephen to buzz off but it was her step-dad! Honey was dripping from his dulcet voice but she was frightened. Why? How did he get her number? Was Mom alright?

Kim was as tongue-tied now as she had been before she left home.

“I heard the news. Congratulations! Your mom and I will be happy to host a celebration and have you back home.”

Her flesh crawled. No way was she going to spend another night under the same roof with him. He was the reason she left home in a hurry, abandoning her college term.

The only two men in her life had turned her world upside down. She thought she had just been able to distance herself from them and gain a modicum of peace and here they were, one after the other, reaching out to her! Sweet, sweet is the power of money.

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Sleep deluded Kim that night. Bleary eyed and groggy, she opened the door of her flat for the morning paper and hastily closed it when light bulbs flashed in her face. What was happening? This, after last night, was too much and she collapsed behind the closed door.

Sanity returned as she struggled to get control of her breathing. Five deep breaths cleared her foggy brain a little.

She had become a celebrity although she had not, in any way, done anything to deserve this new status. She had to get a grip over herself and take a stand. How otherwise would she get on with her life?

Kim mustered her strength and resolutely opened the door again.

Newspaper men with their cameras were ready. Nobody had gone away. They knew that sooner or later she would have to open the door.

She looked at them and gave them a sweet smile. Someone thrust a microphone at her.

“Hi. Let me make the most of my fifteen minutes of fame. I had heard of a postman always ringing twice. But lady luck smiling twice on some humble soul? I guess that makes me special. Otherwise I am a below par working woman. The real hero is Ajit Shah. You should be reaching out to him.” Kim said.

Some people tittered.

“What are you going to do with the money?” Someone asked.

She thought for a while. She had not had time to consider it so far.

“Buy a house, quit the job and get on with my studies, I suppose.”

She flashed them one more smile and closed the door.

She had not forgotten the newspaper.

Her news was on the front page. All the details were there. Her old photo from the college admission office had been dug up.

Oh! She looked so chubby and carefree in it.

Now she was all pinched and haggard. But no matter!

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Living on one’s own, in a new town was not easy. It was always at the back of Kim’s mind that after graduation she would move out but she had not prepared for it. It was far tougher than she had thought.

She chose this town because her best friend’s parents stayed here. The friend helped her with a few leads for waitress jobs and got her parents to join her for house-hunting. That was a smart thing to do because otherwise Kim would not have got this flat in a decent locality. It was very small but Kim kept it clean.

The job too, was tough. Kim was tired on her feet every day as she came home in the late evening or mostly, night.

 “Tips would make up for the stingy pay. Otherwise you would have to fold tried out clothes in Walmart and then you’d really struggle.” Her friend told her. That was true enough but of late Kim had started hankering after Walmart rather than face this daily ordeal of keeping leering looks and pawing hands away as she took orders and served.

All that Kim really wanted was being with Mom and attending her Sociology classes in college. Dr. Julia Tomlinson had given the students such interesting assignments that they were all hooked. Kim had hesitantly begun to express her views in the essays she had to write and it literally felt that new vistas were opening before her. Library research, preparing bibliographies for Dr. Tomlinson’s research projects, helping her to put the departmental newsletter together, skimming scholarly journals – there were a thousand exciting things to do!

Kim even managed to bury her sense of dread at home once she reached college. Her step-dad’s behaviour had changed in an unmistakable way. She felt his gaze following her at all times. It burned holes in her back, she felt. She had never liked him but he had not harmed her before. Now she was tense and worried in his presence. Mom seemed oblivious though.

That night when she suddenly awoke with a start in her room and found him bending over her. It was the last straw. She was paralyzed with fear. Her tongue was sticking to the roof of her mouth. Just at that moment, there was some noise downstairs and Mom called out to him and he withdrew.

Even after bolting her room from inside Kim felt unsafe. She had to tell Mom. However, Mom’s demeanor the next morning was forbidding as she dealt with some office problem and Kim could not go on. She had sought Mom out but Mom’s mind was elsewhere. Plus step-dad was in the house.

Kim left for college and quietly stole back home in the afternoon. She wrote a note to Mom, put her things, bank passbook and cards in a duffel bag and left home.

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Grabbing left overs in the hotel and takeaways on holidays were ruining her health. Kim ate lots and became fat but was always tired. She had thought of resuming her studies after a year but it seemed impossible now. Everything looked hopeless.

She started buying a lottery ticket once a month. Maybe she would win a prize and escape the current troubles. She had to work overtime on a weekday to pay for the ticket.

It was month end and she entered the lottery shop to buy her ticket. An Indian family ran the shop and they were polite people. Ajit Shah greeted her. She was treated as a regular customer now.

Kim started scratching the number on her ticket. It looked different from the winning number which was displayed in the shop.

Of course, what else could she expect? The ticket gave her an evening’s temporary relief. That was all. The price was for those few moments of escape.

Kim did not even finish scratching the number fully. Depression and a sense of futility overcame her.

She thrust the ticket on the counter before Shah and bolted. The effort of scratching, matching it with winning number, plastering a smile on her face to show she did not care was too much!

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After two days, her phone rang in the morning.

“I am speaking from the corner lottery shop. My name is Ajit Shah.”

“Yes?”

“Your lottery ticket on Thursday…”

“I am sorry I left it on the counter. I should have put it in the bin.”

“No, no! It was not fully scratched, you know. I did it and the number tallied. You have won the lottery ma’am.”

Kim drew in a sharp breath. She could not believe what she had just heard. She remained silent.

“Are you there? I have your ticket with me. You will have to come here and then present it. Do you know, the prize money is 1 million dollars?”

Oh God! That kind of money will solve all her problems! But with her anxiety and nerves, she had botched the chance. There was no way to claim the ticket. Who would believe that it was her ticket? It was in Shah’s hands now. Why had he called her at all? He must be having some designs.

“This is not happening!” Kim muttered to herself. She had to go and find out more. She managed to shake off her lethargy for just a little while.

“That’s right. It is a lottery ticket and it is in my hands. I can claim the prize money.” Mr. Shah was watching her keenly and he had divined her thoughts. “My first thought was that I’d do it. I slept that night thinking that I had become a billionaire and would buy a Tesla car. The next morning however, I was uneasy. It did not seem right.”

Mr. Shah paused here and drank some water. Two other customers in the shop had drawn near and they were listening, fascinated.

“So, I phoned my grandparents in India and asked them what I should do.” Shah continued. “Don’t claim the money. They told me without any hesitation.”

“I reasoned with them. It was just a game of chance, I said. It was not that I was robbing somebody of their hard-earned money. However, they were firm. Whether anyone had worked for it or not was beside the point. The money was not mine. Moreover, I knew whose it was and it was my duty to return it to the rightful owner, they insisted. It was difficult to agree with them and yet after a while I understood the wisdom of what they told me.”

Shah took out the crumpled lottery ticket from his pocket and beckoned Kim.

Others in the shop clapped. One of them took a snap of Ajit Shah.

Kim stood rooted where she was. She was witnessing a miracle!

“I was a billionaire in my mind for one night. It felt nice. However, now I have become famous and people are coming into the shop to congratulate and photograph me. This is much nicer.”

Shah grinned and thrust the ticket in Kim’s hands.

 

 

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